Dealing with Triggers

Airports are triggers for me. Being in an airport, thinking about airports, thinking the word airport sends a signal to my brain that makes my eyes well up with tears. It’s almost uncontrollable. I’ve had my dog travel with me on all but two airplane trips since adopting her in…

Making Space: When a victim does you wrong

Trauma can be devastating enough to cause a person to behave irrationally. Sometimes the irrationality hurts people the victim cares about.¬†I had a friend like this back in the days before I knew I had PTSD. Julie¬†was a victim of rape when she was a young teen and never told…

FasTrak’s Valentine’s Day Letter

I’ve heard a lot of complaining since moving to San Francisco. Maybe it’s the people I’m around. But then, I’ve noticed that relatively few drivers wave “thank you” when their cars are let in front. Very few people look up and say a greeting when passing by. And just as…

Inclement Weather (Why Riders Must Lock Their Motorcycles’ Steering Columns)

Yesterday it rained. It was also windy. So windy that it knocked a motorcycle over. I stopped to pick it up, as any neighborly rider would do. But I could not do it by myself because the handlebars were not locked. If there is any one thing I always do…

These Memories Never Go Away

Months have now passed without an anxiety attack or any generalized anxiety. I’ve had a couple of nightmares, but they were not related to 9-11. One would think that for someone recovering from PTSD that this would mean the memories would not return. But this is not so. I have…