On September 11, 2001, I watched the World Trade Center fall from the neighborhood where I lived. After it fell, I went to Brooklyn Hospital and volunteered until 5 o’clock the following morning, went home to my apartment contaminated by the dust, and later got sick and lost my job. I lived for ten years in denial that 9-11 had affected me. It took heart arrhythmias and the ten-year anniversary to convince me to go to the World Trade Center health clinic. Another 6 months later, I was diagnosed with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder.
In early 2013, I started learning how debilitating PTSD can be and decided to write about it. Reason 1, to give myself a project that is motivating, as living with PTSD can be like living with no motivation. Reason 2, to help others with PTSD by sharing experiences and ideas. Helping others is motivating in itself.
If you have PTSD, you are not alone.
I’ve since healed and no longer have debilitating mental struggles, yet it’s important to describe what it’s like living with PTSD.
Before 2013, this blog was almost all about motorcycles, fixing them, and riding them. I enjoyed sharing information about them, especially since I owned vintage bikes that few mechanics knew how to fix. Little did I know how much motorcycles had been helping me cope with a psychological injury I didn’t know I had. These days I’m inclined to write about a variety of topics with the intention to return to motorcycles! However, there is an ever-pressing need to continue documenting my personal experience with trauma to support others who may want to understand more.
Today, I am a professional clinical counselor working toward licensure and have been helping others overcome their traumas and heal from post-traumatic stress. SomaticQuieting.com describes the process by which I healed.
Welcome to my story.