Hypervigilance and Why Motorcycles

Being a New Yorker, one learns to be direct in conversation and say what one thinks without concern.  With hypervigilance, this directness has an added emotional element.  BUT to a person with PTSD this element of emotion may not feel loaded with emotion.  In fact, the person with PTSD may…

The Other Side of Suicide

Kate Spade a few days ago, Anthony Bourdain today. Hung by themselves. We tend to think that when people commit suicide, they are depressed. While depression may be a factor, in the moments before a person actually commits the act, feelings of depression may be relieved by the very-final decision….

The Neurological Disability of PTSD

Many people with PTSD refuse to admit that it can be a disability.  But there is biological evidence indicating how it can be.  Trauma affecting the brain that has experienced previous traumas undergo a change in brain structure.  Namely, the hippocampus decreases in size.  While researchers do not yet know…

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Reaching a stranger (Stopping suicide)

Do you ever see a person on the street and wonder if that person is suicidal?  I often wonder this, and it is one of the reasons why I talk to strangers, including the homeless. Today, while walking Penny, I met a person who I will refer to as DM,…

Vegan Whole Wheat Snickerdoodles

Tartar comes from wine barrels. Wine is sometimes finished with animal products. Therefore tartar might not be vegan. This cookie recipe is truly vegan. The Recipe Combine these dry ingredients: 3/4 cup whole wheat flour 3/4 cup unbleached flour 1-1/2 tsp baking soda 1/4 tsp salt In a separate bowl,…

Letting go of 9/11 dust

Almost every time I visit my therapist at Gouverneur Medical Center in Manhattan, she reminds me to continue cleaning out my apartment that had filled up with hoarded objects. Three of these objects went on eBay today. The most difficult item was a filter cartridge that contained particles from the…

Frank Talk

One recent day after therapy, I came across a storefront filled with classic and vintage audio equipment. My 70s-inner-child delighted in the display and pushed me to go inside. “Hello. Welcome!” said the man behind the counter. “Do you have a Marantz by chance?” I asked. “Oh, you know about…

Practicing Emotional Regulation Online

Out of loneliness, I joined SupportGroups.com, a forum for all kinds of mental and emotional health issues, offered as a free service by a company that is focused on mental health and addiction treatment. More than appease my loneliness, I found people who needed help in the moment. I began…

Brooklyn is Safe Again

I left Brooklyn shortly after Hurricane Sandy devastated parts of the coast of New York and New Jersey in late 2012. I no longer felt safe in my apartment, not because a hurricane could damage it — on the contrary, my building withstands hurricanes — but because I realized how shut…

9/11 Victory

Yesterday was 9/11. For the first time in years I didn’t cry or become depressed. I almost cried after seeing an image on Instagram of a guy on a stair-climbing machine at a gym, wearing a firefighter’s uniform in honor of 9/11. I choke and tear up a bit just…