Accepting Memory Limitations

This morning I went to the farmers market to get some greens.  When I looked around at what was available, I saw a stand that I bought something from just two days prior.  I had bought greens that day, and they were still in the refrigerator.  In that moment upon…

9/11 in 2018

Yesterday was the first 9/11 I didn’t feel angry or depressed since that fateful day.  I’m still having trouble sleeping without Penny right next to me.  Each night I try letting her sleep by herself, but eventually call her over.  And I realize I still have a hard time concentrating…

You Can Fight for Disability Justice Too

The one positive aspect of PTSD’s hypervigilance is the ability to turn the energy into something positive.  I think many people who have faced trauma involving a threat to life become activists.  I certainly have, and I want to encourage more people to become activists.  This does not necessarily mean…

The Difference Between Emotional Support and Service Animals

On one airline’s website, which I checked before booking a flight, the text differentiates between emotional support animals, “psychiatric service” animals, and service animals for more obvious needs such as sight and hearing assistance.  The webpage grouped emotional support and psychiatric service animals together.  This troubled me, because according to…

Impasse on a Mental Capacity Rollercoaster

Ten days prior to today felt glorious, like I was 30-something again, able to be productive, an over-achiever, work full-time plus, and enjoy it.  Today I feel like I’ve hit a wall. I’m not foggy, but my brain seems to have an impasse.  I left my phone at home without…

Healing from Chronic PTSD is Possible

As I type this text, I feel tears of bittersweet relief welling up, because what seemed impossible only a few years ago now seems like a possibility.  My panic attacks have been gone for three years; they used to be on the verge of uncontrollable overwhelm on a daily basis…

Hypervigilance and Why Motorcycles

Being a New Yorker, one learns to be direct in conversation and say what one thinks without concern.  With hypervigilance, this directness has an added emotional element.  BUT to a person with PTSD this element of emotion may not feel loaded with emotion.  In fact, the person with PTSD may…

The Other Side of Suicide

Kate Spade a few days ago, Anthony Bourdain today. Hung by themselves. We tend to think that when people commit suicide, they are depressed. While depression may be a factor, in the moments before a person actually commits the act, feelings of depression may be relieved by the very-final decision….

The Neurological Disability of PTSD

Many people with PTSD refuse to admit that it can be a disability.  But there is biological evidence indicating how it can be.  Trauma affecting the brain that has experienced previous traumas undergo a change in brain structure.  Namely, the hippocampus decreases in size.  While researchers do not yet know…

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Reaching a stranger (Stopping suicide)

Do you ever see a person on the street and wonder if that person is suicidal?  I often wonder this, and it is one of the reasons why I talk to strangers, including the homeless. Today, while walking Penny, I met a person who I will refer to as DM,…