I no longer panic in benign situations and rarely have nightmares if at all. I can think of the bodies that fell and be completely calm. But thinking of the people who called Brooklyn Hospital, I am a hot mess. … Continue readingGrief, 20 Years After 9/11
Today I went to therapy and Eamonn administered EMDR for the second time. We went through all seven steps for working on one set of related situations. The set included seeing a TSA officer checking IDs and plane tickets, which has been a trigger, and being on the phone answering Brooklyn Hospital’s hotline the night … Continue readingGrief Relived
A long time ago I learned that it’s pointless to read the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders to try to figure out if you have a disorder. Anyone can read a list of mental symptoms and say, “This is me!” What makes the list count is when symptoms interfere with daily life and … Continue readingBeginnings
It’s a perfect day for riding. Temperatures in the high-70s, low-80s. The humidity is low, the sun is bright, and there are no clouds in the sky. But I did’t want to ride today. They say that PTSD gets worse before it gets better. Since arriving in San Francisco, I haven’t wanted to take off … Continue readingA Beautiful Day